Saying goodbye and hello at the same time.
I went to the doctor today because of some health problems I've been having for the past week or so. I've had some severe pains in my stomach, and I had no idea what was causing them. Mom and Dad tried to do a mini exam to see if they could figure out what's going on, but even they were stumped. Mom said that if they continued to cause me problems, I would have to see the doctor today.
It's been so hard concentrating on everything I want to get done lately. As if the pain wasn't enough, I feel like my responsibilities as a human being are giving me more and more pressures.
These feelings were the first signs. I really should have known better.
I didn't go to my usual doctor, because scheduling at the last minute usually doesn't work out so well. I went to another physician that I sometimes see, a friend of the family who works with my dad. She was extremely nice and, unlike my usual doctor, she listened to what was going through my head-- probably because she's known me for so long. I didn't tell Mom this, or even Beth yet, but I almost started crying when I was talking to her. I've been hurting so much lately, and then with everything that flowed out of my head and out into the real world-- I began to realize what was wrong. She did, too.
Alice, my doctor, said that my stomach pains are mostly due to the amount of stress I'm undergoing at the moment. I've talked about everything racing through my mind lately (work, classes coming up next week, and moving to my the new apartment this weekend), but I didn't think that my body would react in such a harsh way. I've learned my lesson.
I took off work most of today; I only did what absolutely needed to be done. Right now, I'm trying to sit and relax without thinking about anything stressful. Even though Beth and I will have to move a bunch of stuff this weekend, I'm hoping that the extra day off on Monday (because of Labor Day) will give me that extra zing I need to pick myself up. It's time to rest; it's time to breathe for a while.
It's hard to believe that Shawn and I were running around and taking photos last weekend. I can't imagine myself doing that today. I feel so drained. Alice also gave me some medication that should hopefully help lessen the pain a little. The medicine has a side effect though: it's going to make me extra sleepy. That isn't a horrible thing right now, but I'm really hoping that it won't affect my schoolwork next week.
Another piece of "medicine" (advice) that Alice gave me was to not worry about school so much at this point. She said that since I've found a job that I want to stick with, a real passion for my future, that I can take some of that burden to get straight A's on my report cards off my shoulders. I know she's right, but it's difficult making a change that drastic. My entire academic lifestyle revolves around trying to do the absolute best. I've made it my personal goal to get on the Dean's List and to stay on the list for as long as possible. I want to graduate college English major with honors, and at this rate, it looks like I'll be able to do so.
Basically, I need to start prioritizing my life. I'm doing more than I've ever done before, and part of this is my own, personal evolution, so I figure that learning to juggle priorities is normal. It's just a rough time for me right now, but once I get a better hang of everything, I think I'll be oh kay.
So, here's to an end and a beginning. *raises glass* Goodbye Summer, hello Life.
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don't stress!
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Luckily, through my own dumb luck, I didn't get my forms in time for financial aid and I had to take this semester off. While im sad I won't be graduating this semester I feel more rested and definately less stressed.
I hope the steps you have taken will help you and your body feel better.
I admire how you always try and be the best at stuff, it's brilliant, but not when it starts to cause you pain! Relax more too :)
all will be well :)
I hope you can find a balance that works well for you!
Good luck with school this semester!
Good luck hope you feel better. I have had similar problems and it really sux. I had a food allergy test by an accupuncturist and taking out foods has helped a lot. Turns out I am allergic to a lot of foods that are mild to most people (chicken, goat dairy, soy...). I also ended up getting my appendix out which helped part of the problem as well. Lucky for me I have a boss who gets it so I can take mental health days to prevent "flare ups".
It’s good to know you have finally solved that mysterious pain and are now on the way to dealing with it. If the medication is what I think it might be you’ll have to make sure to take it correctly, because it can add to side effects problems. Take it easy girl, these are easy words to say but hard to change your life and live by so good luck and try to live by that one day at a time. you can do it, just take it easy take it slow.
other than that, i hope things are going well for you. i'm a bad vox-er – :O! – but it's always nice to come back and see that you're always constant. (also? you jump high!)
When I was your age I went through exactly the same thing: all of my stress went straight to my stomach. The doctor and I figured out what was going on, but instead of managing my stress, I simply moved it around, first to my right arm, then to my back. It took time, but after a while I learned (more or less) how to get the stress out of my body.
It may take you some time too, but if you proactively attack this, by trying yoga, walking, meditation, pilates, etc., you will find your way too.
You have to read this book sometime. I will happily send it to you - Too Nice For Your Own Good
The writer ,when he found he couldn't whistle anymore, went to the Dr. The Doc had him add up all the outside commitments he had in one week - it come out to over 65 hours! As he cut back, so did his whistle! :)
Hugs, and best luck finding balance. :)
The beauty of this plan is when you find work that your truly enjoy and can chip even more of that 25% to yourself because inevitably the smaller that number gets the more happy you will be.
Get well soon and always remember that life is a garden, dig it ^_^
You need to allow yourself to loose a little control of your life, it's very hard in the beginning. I know you believe you have to be the best you can be but sometimes a little less makes you better than you could imagine ^__^
You have a wonderful job and it should give you some peace of mind. But I understand that you secretly are thinking of a far away maybe future too, and sometimes that's the thing you should stop doing... because it kind of shuts you down in one way or another. You are prepared enough and with this last year of classes you'll be fine!
Now go out and enjoy the day, spend some funtime!!! ^______^
<<<Hugs>>>
*hugs*
Feel better and don't stress out!
I hope you can find a powerful core of energy to draw on; you are a really wonderful person and deserve to be happy.
You have your whole life ahead of you - don't ruin it by getting all stressed already! Focusing on one thing at a time is good advice, as well as prioritising. That Alice seems like a clever person. Listen to her. :-)
And as Phillip above says, you've got so much good energy going I'm sure your life will be absolutely miraculous in the end.
Hope you feel better, and have a great weekend. :)
awwwww i hope u get well soon! rest rest rest rest n relax!
free ur mind.. nothing is worth all the tention!
Take care of yourself first, your relationships second, and everything else after that.
Body stress is the worst.
At least you let your emotions flow out, so maybe that's the time to cleanse yourself and start anew.
I hope for the best, hun.
<<3Get well soon!
I plan on responding to more individual comments later on. I just moved the majority of my things into my new apartment today (with the help of Shawn and Jeremy who did almost all of the work themselves, haha), so I'm a little wiped out.
For now... hugs all around! *huggies* ^__________^
feel better, hon.
good luck with the start of school. maybe i'll see you on campus! please, please try not to stress out too much - you are on the final stretch!
Home your feeling better
and your move went well
I know it is hard to do but try to stop worrying about everything
You and Shawn look great in the pic, and the oink glasses look great! are they new?
don't forget to email me your new addy so I can mail you out some of my Moo cards and stuff =^-^=
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Bonjour Lauren,
Your new doctor seems to be a real good one. Actually, talking about your problem will help you. First to keep distance about them!
Relax and take long breaths.
It’s very great you are so eager to success in your studies and then in your future life. Though contradictory it seems to be, having fun will help you to stay at the top ! Your body gave you a signal you cannot ignore. If you keep going like that, there’s a risk the pain becomes persistent. And be a cause of another’s annoyance. You’re so intense and so brilliant, there’s no need for you to stress on your competence!
Oh you could practice Pilates. That’s very helpful to remove all the stress!
Good vibrations and serenity !
Bisous